` HOLD ON .

2006-01-25T15:28:00.000+08:00

WHATS YOUR FUCKING PROBLEM , YOU SHITHOLE ?!

2006-01-25T15:05:00.000+08:00

tell me , what do you do when it all falls apart ?

real bad day yesterday .

maybe you think you're too good for me .

2006-01-22T22:13:00.000+08:00

which to bury , us or the hatchet ?
i'd rather bury th hatchet & not us .

o wells , weird people i know .
just visited nerdypoo's blog . his TESTING post was so funny i couldn't stop laughing .
((:

sarah : can't help it if i always HAPPEN TO SEE . i've got ' always-happening-to-see ' eyes . i remind you about your hw & you still call me t plug my eyes out . some kinda nudgerereere . ):

audrey kukupompousmama : you nini . thaaat only code had significance . hahaha . uh okay , so whatever . no other fish in th sea .
" twenty million other white rappers emerge ,
but no matter how many fish in th sea ,
it'll be so empty , without me . ? "

ruth : baby sitter & i'm th BABY SAT-THING . ooh yay . cigarette smoke ? lolll .

& xavier said he can't imagine me in th sc uniform ! hahaha . humour me .

2006-01-20T17:48:00.000+08:00

which to bury , us or the hatchet ?

i think you know what i'm getting at
i find it so upsetting that
the memories that you select you keep the bad
but the good you just forget

& even though i'm angry i still can say
i know my heart will break the day
when you peel out & drive away
i can't believe this happened

& all this time i never thought
that all we had would be all for nought

no , i don't hate you
don't want to fight you
know i'll always love you
but right now i just don't like you
cus you took this too far

make you decision & don't you dare think twice
go with your instinct along with some bad advice
this didn't turn out the way i thought it would at all
you blame me but some of this is still your fault

i tried to move you , but you just wouldn't budge
i tried to hold you hand but you'd rather hold your grudge
i think you know what i'm getting at
you said goodbye & i just don't want you regretting that

& wisdom always chooses
these black eye & these bruises
over the heartache that they say
never completely goes away
i just can't believe this happened
& one day we'll see this come around

what happened to us
i heard that it's me we should blame
what happened to us
why didn't you stop me from turning out this way
& know that i don't hate you
& know that i don't want to fight you
& know that i'll always love you
~~but right now i just don't~~ ..

2006-01-20T16:23:00.000+08:00

until the day i die
i'll spill my heart for you , for you

as years go by
i race the clock with you
but if you died right now
you know that i'd die too

you remind me of the times
when i knew who i was
but still the second hand will catch us
like it always does

we'll make the same mistakes
i'll take the fall for you
i hope you need this now
cus i know i still do

until the day i die
i'll spill my heart for you , for you

should i bite my tongue
until blood stains my shirt ?
we'll never fall apart
so tell me why this hurts so much

my hands are at your throat
& i think i hate you
but still we'll say , " remember when "
just like we always do

until the day i die
i'll spill my heart for you , for you ..

2006-01-16T22:26:00.000+08:00

like a saturday night
i'll be gone
like a saturday night
i'll be gone before you knew that i was there

gna screw up th lit test tmw . bloody chinese hw not done . geog , ss too . & maths ?
sighs .

whatever .
imissyou.

kill me while i still believe you were meant for me
writing my own words my own little stage
my own epic drama my own scripted page
send you the rough draft i'll seal it with tears
maybe you'll read it & i'll reappear

2006-01-15T14:15:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry
i didn't say goodbye
i'm sorry
that i made you cry
& i'd make it up to you
if i had the chance to
what are we supposed to do
everything goes wrong
is it possible to change our destiny
what are we supposed to do
when everything right goes wrong
its impossible to change our destiny
to change our destiny

there is a better place that awaits me
i'll see you there
you've got the whole world ahead of you
ahead of you

2006-01-14T18:58:00.000+08:00

if our ever after ever had a chance to grow .

maybe im just not wanted there . thats why .

went for church youth group's resonate thingy this afternoon .
not that weird after all , i guess.
sighs .

2006-01-14T11:39:00.000+08:00

HAHAHAHA .
THE LONG AWAITED MIX OF
' REMEMBER THE NAME ' , by my BLOOD JIE .
LOLLL ((:

[Swee]
You ready? Lets go!
Yeah, for those of you who want to know what we're all about
It's like this y`all (c`mon!)

[Chorus]
This is ten percent luck,
Twenty percent skill,
Fifteen percent concentrated power of will,
Five percent pleasure,
Fifty percent pain,
And a hundred percent reason to remember the name!

[Swee]
Chhar
She doesn't need her name up in lights
She just wants to be heard whether it's councillor or teacher
She feels so unlike everybody else, alone
In spite of the fact that some people still think that they know her
But fuck 'em
She knows the code: It's not about the depression
It's about reality and studying hard
Writin' a essay
Makin sure her clique stays up
That means when she puts it down,
Genny's pickin it up! (Let's go!)

[Genny]
Sarah!
Who the hell is she anyway?
She never really talks much
Never concerned with status but still leavin us star struck
Humbled through opportunities given despite the fact
That many misjudge her because she makes a livin cheering us up
Put it together herself, now the picture connects
Never askin for someone's help, and get some respect
She's only focused on her Lord God, her will is beyond reach
And now when it all unfolds, the skill of a guitarist

[Chhar]
This is twenty percent cool
Eighty percent cigs
Be one hundred percent clear, 'cause Swee is ill
Who would've thought that she'd be the one to set the school in flames
Then I heard her wreckin with her life in Sri Lanka, "The Paradise Beach"
Came back dropped Singapore, went into cutting I like blood man,
Sarah had the touchiest verse
This gal is the truth, now everybody givin her laughter
Her joke's through the roof I heard her fuckin with Sindhu!!!

[Chorus]

[Chhar]
They call her Swee she's sick
And she`s spittin' fire at me
Got her out the suicide she's sad
Found her in dustbin with Pooky
What a fuckin' nihilist mongoose
She's a les, she's a joke
The type woman want to be with
And parents hope she get shot
Fours years in the Fairfield
Patiently waitin to shine
Now the record with ms Ng may gay takin control
She's got a partner in crime-my shit is equally dope
You wont believe the kind of shit that comes out of this kid's throat

[Sarah]
Audrey!
She's not your everyday on the block
She knows how to work with what she's got
Makin her way to the top
She often gets a comment on her surname
People keep askin her, was it on purpose,
Or does it stand for an acronym? No.
She's livin' proof, Of a perfectionist
She'll get you to ask her to shut up everytime at recess
Her and her clique are known around as one of the best
Dedicated to what they do n gives a hundred percent!

[Swee]
Forget Genny!
Nobody really knows how or why she works so hard
It seems like she's never got time
Because she works every day, and she works every night
And Ive seen her at school when that light goes on in her mind
Its like equations is written in her head every time
Before she even touches a pen or speaks in a answer
And those motherfuckers she runs with the kids that she signed?
Ridiculous, without even trying, how does she do it?!

[and the chorus again X3]

[Outro - Audrey]
Yeah!!
Kuku pompous!!!
Freakapooloo, FMSS!!!!
M&M clique!!!
Without Dhu!!!! ((((x

2006-01-13T15:47:00.000+08:00

stab my back ,
its better when i bleed for you .

hahaha . new skin .
didn't go t school today . had a feeling of smth throbbing in my head . sighhers . & there's so much bloody homework . all my books are in school ,
damnit .
):

2006-01-10T21:01:00.000+08:00

i know we've been friends forever
but now i think i'm feeling something totally new
& after all this time i opened up my eyes
now i see you were always with me

could it be you & i
never imagined
could it be suddenly i'm falling for you
could it be you were right here beside me & i never knew
could it be that it's true
that it's you

2006-01-05T20:43:00.000+08:00

the whole time he was smiling on the outside to cover the pain
but on the inside he was just trying to get away
he's dying to get away
let the pain of yesterday go slipping through the cracks
hiding himself away
watching all the memories fade away from red to black

kukufied ):
just don't know how to say this . i didn't treasure you as much as i do now . sighs . i'm sorry .
if you would just come back to me ..

2006-01-05T19:07:00.000+08:00

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2006-01-04T20:18:00.000+08:00

~~i'm the best you never had~~ .

some things are just better left unsaid .
imissyou,nick.i'm sorry):
you're the best i ever had , & will ever have <333

2006-01-02T21:47:00.000+08:00

I DOWWAN TO GO BACK TO SCHOOL ):

2006-01-01T21:15:00.000+08:00

This Is My Life, Rated
Life:	5.6
Mind:	5.2
Body:	6.6
Spirit:	5
Friends/Family:	5
Love:	2.1
Finance:	4.8
Take the Rate My Life Quiz

hahaha . got real boreddd . took it from nat's blog . & it shows how pathetic my life is . lolll . sighhers . still gotta do last minute homework . ):

im out .

2006-01-01T17:01:00.000+08:00

but still
i try to find a way to escape
from all the hate planted in my head which lead to mistakes
but now i'm breaking the mold / see i was patient & calm
many sleep on the rain / but i'm awake in the storm

YAY ?
finally striked one off my ' wants ' list . loll . its retarded la . hahaha . also dno why . but yeah , was clearing out all th crappy previous blogskins i had in my comp & stumbled upon th dumb wishlists . with funny spellings . hahaha . & i wished for really retarded stuff ? lolll . hmm . a nz all blacks rugby ball ? hehh (: & there was th ' 7 years & 50 days ' & ' covergirl ' album by groove coverage when i had already downloaded everything ? its getting even more retarded . hmm , there was an apple ipod too . a new pencilcase , laptop , clothes , shoes , phone . all material stuffs . geez .

UBER RETARDED :]

& now everyones changing phone . ): but i can't . hahah . gotta wait about a year more . but i also don't wanna change yet la . theres all th hundreds of messages in there . loll :DDD

I'VE WASTED ALL MY LIFE
CHASING SHALLOW DREAMS

2006-01-01T00:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR (:

hahahaha . im soooooo happppppy :DDD

okayy , maybe not really exactly . loll . went over t glendale t celebrate my cousins really belated 21st birthday , kinda big occasion . hahaha . wanted t play tennis before that . dumb rain spoilt my plans . ): so went over t my other cousins hse & played risk like th whole evening . lolll . (:

I CONQUERED ALL ASIA ! :DDD

lolll . yeah , & i had australia too ! hahaha . went down for dinner whatever . before that my mom was kept on calling me t call my cousins t all go down & help carry stuff from their hse t th function room . she called at about o61opm , we didn't go down till o63opm . lolll . & she kept complaining why we were late . & we all were laughing like mad saying ' we have a war t fight ! there's a very fierce war going on upstairs , WORLD DOMINATION ! ' . hahaha :DDD

left shortly after dinner t continue our world domination conquest . lolll . but this time we were one player short cus my cousin had t entertain guests . hahaha . so we just cleared all her pieces & took over them as & when we liked . asia & australia , MINE . (:

im happy im happy im happpyyyyy
hahahaha . some inside feeling noone will ever be able t understand :DDD

october air reminds me
of all the seasons of your love
& what it was like
when we were together
the smell of fall is everywhere
& though it seems
like i just don't care
cus now you've gone away
i wanna fall in love
tonight

& i remember when you said
everything's gonna be alright
alright
i wanna fall in love
i wanna fall in love
i wanna fall in love
tonight .

<3

2005-12-30T22:27:00.001+08:00

come here , please hold my hand , Lord , now
help me , i'm scared please show me how
to fight this , God has a master plan
& i guess , i am in his demand

hahaha .

watched narnia early this morning , with family & cousins . couldn't wake up AT ALL . 1o2o show . lolll . : DDD had swensens after thaaat . WHEE . & at swensens , ' breaded chicken meunire ' was on th menu . & we started laughing like crazaye when my mum ordered it . it sounded like , ' one breaded chicken manure ' . lollll . (: oh , & in th car on th way t narnia , my mum was asking my counsins who had watched king kong how tall he was . my cousins said ' forgot-how-many-feet-already ' . think it was 25ft in real life or on screen whatever . hahaha . then my mum said smth like is that his real size or when he was sitting down or whatever . & suddenly my cousins said that naomi watts' face appeared on big screen , so her face in real life must be 1oft or smth . crapppppy laaahhh . but thats just us . (:

almost went bowling after that , but had some church stuff on . so just went los . was crappy la . yeah , whatever . _____ is a downright hypocrite laaa . shan't bother t say why . so who cares . ugh .

CHRIS ! :
thaaaaanks for th present ! YAY . hahaha . hope your grandmother is feeling better & gets well soon . (:

NERDYPOO ! :
hahaha . dno lahhh . yeah , whatever . just went lahh .

JIANWEN ? :
lolll . just help me get that album can alrdy or smth lahh . hahaha . so nice ah ? go get my present before your speakers . (:

anywayyy , fleaa just reminded me about th dno whatever top 1oo songs countdown thingy on perfect 1o . hahaha . our list for this year ? lolll . we were boreddd . : DDD

5 - hell song , sum41
4 - be my escape , relient k
3 - 1,2,3 fleaa song , US FLEAAS !
2 - you & me , lifehouse
1 - ghost of you , goodcharlotte !

hahaha . don't mind , we were really , really , exceedingly boreddd : DDD

okayy , blogging is getting retardedddd .

please stay until i'm gone
i'm here hold on to me
i'm right here waiting
& take my one last breath
& don't forget
that i will be right here waiting

2005-12-29T22:49:00.000+08:00

stab my back , it's better when i bleed for you .

ARGH .
people are sending me that funny message thingy . th next life thing . hahaha . boreddd : DDD
only asked swee cus i was realllllly boreddd & wanted t know what she said ? lolll .
& she said ,
- a little blood meimei t take care of . (x
(( with that funny smiley ))

hahaha .
& yixin called me down . accompanied her t th interchange . bloody forgot my wallet . hahaha . cus i told my parents i was just hanging around downstairs . so really didn't bring my wallet along . walked there . met funny people on th way there . funny = weird , not funny = HAHA .

boreddd , sighhers .

& even when your hope is gone ,
move along , move along ,
just to make it through .

2005-12-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

i don't believe that anybody feels
the way i do about you now

& all the roads we have to walk along are winding
& all the lights that lead us there are blinding
there are many things that i would
like to say to you
i don't know how

take me away .

2005-12-23T23:03:00.000+08:00

thanks so much for th false hopes .

2005-12-23T17:21:00.000+08:00

the stars will cry
the blackest tears tonight
& this is the moment that i live for
i can smell the ocean air
& here i am
pouring my heart onto these rooftops
just a ghost to the world
that's exactly ,
exactly what i need .

nth today . just an exceedingly boring day . not playing tennis , not hanging around downstairs , whatever . boring . & theres nth t blog about anyway .

thanks so much for th false hopes . like it'll ever happen . yeah , yeah , if i try t help myself or whatever .
HUMOUR ME .

2005-12-22T22:17:00.000+08:00

these hands stained red
from the times that i've killed you & then
we can wash down this engagement ring
with poison & kerosine
we'll laugh as we die
& we'll celebrate the end of things with cheap champagne

))))))))))))))))))))))))))):
thaaaaaaats my biggest smile .
sighhers .

FLEAAAAAA !
hurrry come baaack . ):

2005-12-21T20:59:00.000+08:00

1o% luck , 2o% skill ,
15% concentrated power of will ,
5% pleasure , 50% pain ,
& a 1oo% reason to remember the name .

YAY !
new skin up . muahahas .
FORT MINOR & THE RISING TIED . (:
i want . hehh .

went t make ic today . wth la . dumb photographer . same thing happened this time like th start of this year . another dumb photographer was like , 'head left , up a bit , look straight , turn your head right , no ! a bit left now .. '
WHATEVER . ROARS .

o wells , nth much left t do . sighhers .
thanks nudgerer for th blogggg ! (:
NUDGERER <3

im out .

2005-12-21T18:04:00.000+08:00

YAY !
YAY !
WHEE !
AHH !

ITS HERE !
MY GC HOODIE IS HERE !
LOVELOVELOVEEEEE .
(:

2005-12-19T23:25:00.000+08:00

summer air reminds me of
all the feelings of your love
& what it was like
when we were together
walking out along the beach
you were never far from my reach
& you held me
through the stormy weather
& i wanna fall in love
tonight

& i remember when you said
everything's gonna be alright
laying in the summer grass
you told me not to talk so fast
as i told you
how i feel
you made me feel right at home
you told me i was not alone
& you knew
just how i feel

i know we talked about it
i just can't get around
i just want one more night with you
i wanna fall in love
tonight

& i remember when you said
everything's gonna be alright
october air reminds me
of all the seasons of your love
& what it was like
when we were together
the smell of fall is everywhere
& though it seems
like i just don't care
cus now you've gone away
i wanna fall in love
tonight

& i remember when you said
everything's gonna be alright
alright
i wanna fall in love
i wanna fall in love
i wanna fall in love tonight

<3
seasons , goodcharlotte .

2005-12-17T22:34:00.000+08:00

i never dreamt it'd be this way
i've lost any chance for me to say
to say that i miss you ,
to say that i love you ,
will someone please tell me im okay

i wasn't prepared for whats to come
a life made of memories ,
gone so young
& now i'm regretting all i've done
but in your heart know that
i'm with you all along

whereever you go , i will be waiting
whenever you call , i will be there
whatever it takes , i'll make your darkest days so bright
i'm in your heart tonight

i never thought that this could go
& take me away from all i know
& leave me to think i'm on my own
but your love will take me ,
you were the one..

who sat through nights
you held me tight
& made sure i'm okay
& i thank you for the love you gave to me

whereever you go , i will be waiting
whenever you call , i will be there
whatever it takes , i'll make your darkest days so bright
i'm in your heart tonight

tonight..

whereever you go , i will be waiting
whenever you call , i will be there
whatever it takes , i'll make your darkest days so bright
whereever you go , i will be waiting
whenever you call , i will be there
whatever it takes , i'll make your darkest days so bright
& if i should fall , i know you're waiting
& if i should call , i know you're there

if ever your cry , just know
i'm in your heart tonight ,
i'm in your heart tonight .

<3
gone so young , amberpacific .

2005-12-16T22:27:00.000+08:00

BACK THEN IT MEANT
SO MUCH ,
TO HAVE YOU BY MY SIDE .
I ALWAYS HAD YOUR BACK ,
& YOU ALWAYS HAD MINE .

saying ,
let me go ,
have some fun .
well , my desicion sucks to you .
but im so young .

yeah , dno la .
im getting kinda bored of this blogging thingaye .
running out of ideas too .
sucksers .
sighhers .
im so screwed up la .
ROARS .

TAKE ME AWAY .

2005-12-16T13:47:00.000+08:00

yeah ,
just a temp skin for now la .
just like th red & black .
RIGHT SARAH ? (:

2005-12-16T00:05:00.000+08:00

DO YOU REMEMBER
BACK THEN WHEN WE MET ,
YOU TOLD ME THIS GETS HARDER .
WELL , IT DID .

oher noers .
i miss my old skin . ):
how screwed up this blog is .
its real crappy .
sighhers .
BE MY ESCAPE .
still one of my faves .
after th FLEAA's song ,
ghost of you ,
say anything ,
you & me ,
th hell song ,
whatever .
& th list goes on & on .
(:
oh !
& sarah gave me my own song !
behind blue eyes .
YAY .

anyways , played tennis today .
WHEE .
lolll .
played ultraaa pathetically todayy .
grr . ):
ROARS .
think im going out with yixin on saturday anyways .

TH CLIQUE 5 !
FREAKADOOPOOLOO .
haha .
sorry i cant make it t meet audrey at th airport tmw 5 .
sorry people . ):

& we have t go t malaysia some other time .
hehh .

SARAH !
finally changed my skin !
WHEE !
lolll .
red &amp; black .
GOTH & PUNK .
& TH NUDGERERS !
& KANGAPOOS .

im that bored .
sighhers .

YEAH ,
DROP ME A MESSAGE CUS MY LINKS ARE PATHETIC .
HEHH . (:

2005-12-13T15:21:00.000+08:00

some say that
time changes
best friends can
become strangers
but i don't want that
no , not for you
if you just stay with me
we can make it through

so here we are again
same old argument
& now i'm wondering
if things will ever change , yeah
when will you laugh again ?
laugh like you did back when
we'd make noise till 3am
& the neighbors would complain

all the things we talk about
you know they stay on my mind
all the things we laugh about
they'll bring us through it every time

don't say a word
~~i know you feel the same~~
just give me a sign
say anything , say anything
please don't walk away
~~i know you wanna stay~~
just give me a sign
say anything , say anything

say anything - good charlotte.

2005-12-13T12:38:00.000+08:00

NUDGERERER ! SWEE !

midnights chats are sooooo crappy . hurry come online & entertain me . family pets ! (:

2005-12-13T11:43:00.000+08:00

sighhhers .

i was bored . & i still am .

RYAN : sorry didnt pick up last night . lolll. joellls funeral & calling her in th office . ):

I WANNA PLAY TENNIS ! (:

2005-12-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

THANKS MY DARL NUDGERER , SWEE , CHHAR , KUKUPOMPOUS MAMA , DHUDEE & EVERY ONE ELSE WHO STAYED UP . LOLLLL . (:

ryan , conscience , darren fleaa , darren nerd , bolus , pope , ruth , weiting , matt , alvan , lala , abi , durian , sinyee , tabitha , turtleshell , jianwen , nerdypoo , astro gay , shannon , glenn , shortie 2 , bestie mei , th flying baby , darl kor , rayna , cheryl , nathaniel , charles , & sorry to whoever i missed out ! ):

2005-12-12T00:56:00.000+08:00

LALALAAA.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME (:
FINALLY.

SARAH !
now we can grow up together. YAY. lolll.

im bored. lolll. WHEE!

2005-12-10T16:53:00.000+08:00

[edit]

YAY !

my dad just ordered my birthday present online . wouldnt believe it . lolll .

GOODCHARLOTTE <3

MUAHAHAHAH . (:
love love . also wanted t get a linkinparkunderground one. but looked kinda plain though.

LINKINPARK <3

hmms . it should be here in about like , A MONTHS TIME ? (:

WHEE !
<33

[/edit]

2005-12-09T20:28:00.000+08:00

hey.

uber boring day today. loll. absolutely nth t do. went down t crap with yixin. & michelle went t bangkok. haha.

SARAH !
black nail polishhhh. hahaha. gothgirl. preppp. poser. LOSER! lollllll. (:

hmms. 11th - yixin day. haha. 26th too. stupid girl asked me t bake brownies for her! & shes only gna get a 15cm by 15 cm piece. im so nice lahh! give her so much. & theres flying babies too. & shes so gna cry if she goes down t th countdown party thingy. lollll. YAY. (:

ROARS. boredomkills. grr. keep occupied. like , WHATEVER. pffts.

2005-12-08T23:44:00.000+08:00

lolll.

played squash this evening. from 8 - 10 with ryan & shannon. but th retard had t go home first t pack for his whatever tioman thingaye. haha.

nth much tmw. tuition & ive got nth t do after thaaaaat. boring day it'll be. unless theres someone t play tennis. ): YAY.

update tmw AGAIN. dumb bro annoying me. & i just realised that im not talking sense anymore. slept damn little last night. LOLLL. thanks t th dumb taxis which were all on callllll. sheeesh.

peace out.

2005-12-08T14:29:00.000+08:00

YAY.

lolll. got so screwed last night. haha. went bowling with my neighbors last night at marina south. yeah, whatever. bowled 2o games. WHEE! (: met ruth & yulica there laters. lolll. in th end got back at like 1145. haha. grr.

got screwed at training again today. hehh. had t play best of 5 with esther. lost like crap. CRAPPP. lolll. smth like, HMM, 9 - 1, 9 - 3, 9 - I-DONT-KNOW-WHAT-I-LOST-COUNT?! stupid coach kept on screaming at me. why wasnt i running? cus i slept damn little last night lahh you *bleeper*. ROARS. playing squash tonight with ryan & shannon? LOLLL.

SWEEEEE!
stupid girlll. call me kuku just cus i messaged you! ROARS! i want a pet crocodile which goes ROAR okayyy? YAY. & you did get my sockksses right? lollllers.

SARAH!
haha. sorry i cldnt make it. lolllers. sighhers. hehhhers. PINNERS! (:

CHARLENE!
you'll be at th next training right? lolll. dont think yang will be there anymore. i think. but he's going t coach raffles nxt year already. lollllers.

going back t hibernate. laters. (:

2005-12-06T14:15:00.000+08:00

ROARS.

got th whatever pet thingy. but it appears funny when i upload th code whatever. lollllers.

some other time then. (:

2005-12-06T12:44:00.000+08:00

IM BACK! sunburnt.

lolll. after dno how many thousand years. ooh, and i had taggers! lolll. hmms. m'sia tmw with TH CLIQUE FIVE or whatever they call themselves. ~~unhealthy people.~~ _______. haha. shhh. not gna say anyth. ROARS.

update laters. gotta get a WHATEVER-PET-THINGY-THAT-CHARLENE-&-SARAH-HAVE.

laters. oh yeah, played tennis last night. WHEE! from like, 8 - 10. haha. crappy. (:

2005-11-30T23:57:00.000+08:00

BUT THE BEAUTY OF GRACE IS THAT IT MAKES LIFE NOT FAIR.

WHEE!

loll. got my new skin up by 1st dec already. haha. th funny looking thing on th top right is supposed t be some border i did when i was real bored. lolll. that shld explain it. oh yeah, and theres smth else in there, besides th dumb looking person. hehh. ((:

going away for church camp tmw till saturday.

CHI SENG! : lolll. yah lah, 17 los. hehh. but i get t watch it first. YAY! (:

NUDGERER! : please help me look for tht damned song. lalalaaa. youer arer missinger ther pinner ier knower! (:

CHARLENE! : youd better go for trng tmw. ponnertanger. (:

SWEE! : hug me another time and i'll punch you! (:

loll. doubt any of you'll read this anywayyyyy.

2005-10-14T09:35:00.000+08:00

hey.

dying from boredom now. sighhers. all the kukus are at sch and there's noone to play tennis with me, damnit.

wed - GIRLS DAY OUT.

~~I WAS MADE TO WEAR A BLOODY SKIRT.~~
anwyways, love audrey, ilena, jaclyn, samantha, sindhu!

met samantha at the busstop opposite acsi, got on the same bus that sindhu was on, about half an hour ride down to town. jaclyn and ilena were going to be late or something. walked around first. the bimbo audrey didn't know where to find us and said she was at the entrance. kukufied girl couldn't walk properly the moment we met her! (:

walked around somemore. met ilena and jaclyn. went to marche. made a bloody big hole in my wallet. grr. samantha and ilena's idea. going to marche to eat calamari wings. jaclyn was looking for the pasta counter and couldn't find it after walking around the same salad counter 5 times. LOLL. and when we finally found it, we ordered and had to wait 5 mins and then go back to collect it. 5 mins later, jaclyn lost her way. she couldn't find the counter again! WHEE! haha. walked in circles. loll.

then we walked around somemore. met ahem and a group of guys with her. haha. kukufied! went to take neos. ahhh, so retarded. loll. after the neos we went to flash and splash before samantha went wakeboarding. saw the "CARS!" guy there. haha. and samantha had to go off, we walked out and they were putting make up on jaclyn! loll. audrey wanted to put brown and she put red, and jaclyn looked like she had a fight. (:

bugged them for my haircut. walked over to far east. finally had my haircut! WHEE! (: loll. when i having my haircut the girls walked around, bought similar earrings and sindhu's was sweeping her neck lahh. haha. and when they came back they were like, 'ahh! so punk sial!' loll. and from the corner of my eye they looked like they were just ordinary passerbys cus i couldn't see their faces. i thought they were mad. esp audrey. WHEE! (: and after that jaclyn also wanted to cut her hair.
I LOVE MY HAIRCUT TWIN!

took more neos with half the clique. loll. went back to see if jaclyn was done. took even more neos with my twin. took neos thrice that day lahh. grr. and then walked around more. then i had to go home. and on the bridge across from far east the crazy girls were trying to take a picture of me in a skirt. ROARS. haha. they walked around even more and bought tattoos. damnit, they saw my chinese surname and didn't get it. haha. no matter, SINDHU! WE'LL GO GET IT WHEN WE GET THE SHIRT OKAYYY? (:

ahh, im broke. wanna call the giant nerd and probably the girl i had yixin day with and start hitting the courts. ((:

2005-10-14T00:32:00.000+08:00

BOO!

whee! went out yesterday with half the 3b'o5 girls. loll.
temp skin now.
update tomorrow.
till then, NIGHTS!

<3

2005-08-13T22:54:00.000+08:00

WHEE!

today was FUN FUN FUN!

woke up at 7. had tuition from 8 - 10. rushed down to kim seng with xavier. dumb taxi. haha. reached there at abt 1035. registered. and the bowling thingy didnt start till about 1115 or smth like that. and like everyone there was like from ngee ann poly bowling lahh. loll. and some from sim? anws, shared lanes with kah heng, brian, joanne, alicia and xavier. damn crappy. haha. OOOHH! loll. and they had this funny tradition. like hi-5ving at each nice bowl or smth. haha. and after every game. loll. and for the first 2 games xavier and i were 25th out of the 31 groups competing. then after the 4 games each we dropped 2 places. dangs. loll. doesnt matter! it was damn fun. and thats all that matters. ((:

after the bowling stuff, we went down to orchard. took mrts seperate ways and i went down to acsi. waited for my aunt to pick me up and then went to my cousins house to play tennis.

WHEE! (again.)

played tennis from about 6 plus to 8 plus. loll. today my forehand damn nice lor! loll. and like 3 balls flew out of the court. thanks to my bro. and me. (:

sorry xavier and yixin! couldnt go out with you guys to catch bewitched. loll. some other time yeah? <3

tomorrow bowlings on the list again. hehhs. cant wait.

2005-08-12T22:34:00.000+08:00

boO!

loll. finally updating. after donkey ages. hehh. i 'opened' it and it collected dust. and now im FINALLY updating. crappy. okayy, im just bored lahh.

anyway, im going bowling tomorrow! WHEE! cus of yixin's bro. went bowling with them on wednesday.

WEDNESDAY:

wanted to play tennis in the morning from like, 8 - 12. went down to the courts at around 0820. cus everyone couldnt wake up! haha. wanted to call shannon and ryan down. but ryan was fast asleep. that kuku shannon was grounded or smth. loll. and i went to call all of them. called shannon first, then yixin. didnt bother calling ryan. haha.

so maluu-ating lahh. only played till like 0910 till i started feeling faint. like, waddahell?!. started having gastric problems, and going giddy like mad. till i was kinda wobbling. haha. damn kuku lahh. played for barely an hour lor! the shortest time i ever played tennis before going home. =/ felt like i was going to pass out lahh.

after that went to junction 8 with yixin (again). GOT CLARENCE HIS 3 OREOS AND GEL! ((:
just that this time the oreos and gel, there were MORE oreos, and a BIGGER bottle of gel. loll. call me weird, but i got inspired by him! wonder what i'll be getting from him this year. yunxing and i almost wanted to give him a gstring or smth lahh. loll.

had lunch at long johns. walked around like crazy. went back. bathed and came online. yixin was online and she asked if i wanted to bowl with her kor. haha. i also didnt know him. so i just went for the bowling lor. and xavier is like damn pro lahh! haha. and im going to who knows what bowling thingy tomorrow. loll. im just going for fun lahh. loll.

TOMORROW:

going bowling. and after that probably meeting yixin? if shes feeling better. then going to acsi to play tennis! WHEE! and i'll definitely make sure i dont pass out. loll.

when you left i lost a part of me
its still so hard to believe
come back baby, please
cus' we belong together.
love you loads (:

2005-08-08T23:28:00.000+08:00

okayyyy.

said i'd revive it. loll. apparently not. who cares. (:

2005-07-05T21:48:00.000+08:00

boO!

back on a few demands. oh heck. got bored of blogging. loll. the first week of sch has been hectic. real hectic.

oh anyway,
WOOTS! WE GOT FIRST FOR 4x100 B DIV GIRLS! ((:
WHEE.
jac, sarah and aud.
love y'all.

anyway. took lit with 3D. dropped amath. (: HEHHS.
anyway, guess y'all are getting bored of this skin. got a few more lined up.
take your pick guys.

- an UNDEFINED one (where i havent got the html for the posts quite right)
- apple ipod
- atb !
- behind these hazel eyes
- constantine
- elmo v.2 (loll.)
- jerk it out
- like toy soldiers v.2
- nine days remixed
- obsession v.2
- quiksilver (haha. whatever.)

currently working on a csi one and the church's youths blog. (:

LET ME GO.

2005-04-28T21:41:00.000+08:00

im gone as the day is fading.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LALA!.

going tomorrow. noone shall miss me even if i die on kinabalu. (:

my bag is like, as big as me la. o wells.

i'll miss you.
and you.
and you.
and YOU TOO!. (:

ps - anyone got a 2d`04 flag?. heh.

2005-04-27T21:51:00.000+08:00

ONE MORE DAY.
woots.
packed already.
ROARS.

2005-04-26T18:32:00.000+08:00

man, today was so JINXIFIED.
ROARS.
first was the dumb intruder shit. then went to dover with onggy they all. and ong lost his phone. as in he like left it on the table, went to 7-11 and realised it wasn't with him, ran back to the coffee shop and it wasn't there anymore. sheez. =/ and audrey lost her keys for a moment and han lost his keys too! thats real bad.

thinking of shifting blog.

gotta pack for obs.

TWO MORE DAYS!.
forgot to add, wonderful thing is, we're coming back on the 7th. at an UNEARTHLY hour! just imagine coming back to school. at 2AM in the damned morning! ROARS. and they'll make us stay in school till 7AM. and we can only go back at 7. like, wow? (:

2005-04-25T21:31:00.000+08:00

sad excuses and false hopes high.

BAH. napfa today. first on the lineup was sit ups. just realised that i did only the necessary this year instead of burning myself out like last year. loll. did 40. haha. next was sbj. roars. went to miss yeo's station. only did 185. then moved on to sit and reach. that bloody station killed my points la. as in, i was aiming for 3o points this year..

as i was saying, that arse killed me la. only gave me 3 damned points la. only did 38 plus. then was incline pullups. loll. did 19 in like, less than 20 seconds and just dropped. then final station was shuttle run. dumb shoe tripped me. was "disqualified" on my first try la. that kukunehnehpokarse. purposely make me do again. harumphs. and later jaclyn asked if she could borrow my shoe. haha. tripped her la. suay like mad la. heh. (:

dumb score was like, 27??. sheez.

gonna pack for sabah. just a short 4 days more..

equilibrium.

2005-04-24T15:53:00.000+08:00

don't phunk with me.

sheesh. im damn scared la. don't think i'll even pull through. OXYSHAUN told me to see the obs sabah website. there's like, the FLYING TRAPEZE! whoa. sounds cool, but i'm scared. what if i don't catch that damned thing? ROAR. loll.

just 5 days more.
and shaun's balls are excited. as what that arse claims.

haven't even started packing. only got my contact lenses ready. woots. hahas. no thermal undies for me. (:

awakening.

2005-04-23T22:42:00.000+08:00

so you stole my heart,
and left me a ransom letter.

haha. added a new "temporary feature". loll. lame la. but im like, damn worried la. dont think i'll make it la. =/ havent even got packing. ROARS. im like dead shit already la.

didn't squash like i wanted to this afternoon. slept instead. slept like the WHOLE afternoon away. wanted to go downstairs. but the gang was busy mugging. like the first time i've ever heard of them mug. hah. and rainie was watching her "boyfriend" on tv. the jack monkey dude on mvp2: most something primate la. and i couldn't care less.

freaked over the song awakening. by rank 1. like any of you will know that song la. loll. trancified.

dreams are all forgotten,
memories all turned rotten.

2005-04-23T13:05:00.000+08:00

cus we're happy to pretend
everythings gonna be okay.

YESTERDAY:
nothing much la. just wanna meet my dear chiltern park gang. hopefully we'll catch up after their midyears. heh. shall to try to be nerdy these few days la. miss yeo seems to be speaking burmese in math la. ROAR.

had sabah briefing. hadda take drugs. haha. sarah! this is your cue! DRUGSDRUGSDRUGS. loll. sarah took like, ETERNITY to swallow one pill. haha. but i must admit, it tasted like - EWW. *and does the funny scrunching the face and neck action* =/ and went off to the dentist after that. the dumb rubberband for my braces snapped and broke in my mouth la. ROAR.

~~to think it all was a lie.~~

in search of sunrise.

2005-04-21T21:50:00.000+08:00

snap back to reality.

dumb amath test. everything was blank.
miss lim's talk today. about our future. in which i have none.
went for squash. coach is damn biased. ROAR. keep complaining that we lose his balls. squash balls. estee was damn pms-sy la. yeah, whatever.

irrelevant.

~~i've got a tattoo of your name across my arm~~.
and its FADING AWAY. just like we're drifting apart.

sometimes i even cut myself to see how much it bleeds.
its like adrenaline, the pain is such a sudden rush for me.
see everything you say is real, and i respect you cus you tell it.

-bleedblack;

2005-04-20T22:25:00.000+08:00

ROAR.
just typed this super long post, and i got disconnected and everything disappeared in a POOF. to hell with my bro and his dumb downloads of torrents.

obsessed in my soul,
and not an illusion.

2005-04-18T20:55:00.000+08:00

ever since i met you,
i wanna be around you,
i wanna get down to the point that i need you.
cus everybody needs someone they can trust and
you're somebody
that i found just in time.

school was crap. m koh had her menopause or something. shouting like mad. made all of us laugh. sindhu left early. spent lifeskills with sarah, yuliang and amadea. was making lotsa noice about yuliang and nirma. and about yuliang being racist and all that kinda stuff.

training was crappier. didn't go for lunch with the twins, agnes and rachelle cus i promised swee, char and sarah that i'd lunch with them. (: haha. the twins as usual started their dao-ing attitude. went for training. saw the FAT girl. ahhh!. she cant hit the ball for nuts. and i mean, PEANUTS. walnuts, whatever. she JUST CANT HIT!. *goes blind seeing her hit* played round robins. lost to estee and esther 9 - somethings. but i couldn't care less. just wasn't my day. OFF FORM i call it. loll. (: luckily stupid pp wasn't there. i'll probably think the ball was her head and start bursting all the balls. stayed till around 630 with the twins. started doing boast drives with them. ROAR. still can't pick up. that damned jinxed court. maybe cus the fat girl was hitting in there. heh. got hit once by esther i think. and i hit her back twice lor. accidentally. haha. dumb boasts. tomorrows the squash interschool finals. which marks the end of season. WOOTS!. (: i'll be back bigger and probably better next year. hopefully we can win some games. like the bloody nanyang la. we've got a stronger team man!.

agnes, estee, esther, rachelle, and probably dawn or me fills in the last player. (:

one thing for sure. we kicked cheryl and yee wen outta the team. they were like, NEVER in the team?. just cus coach liked them. yuck. =/

we're gonna kick some ass man. (:

if you want me to wait,
i will wait for you.
if you want me to stay,
i will stay right through.
if you don't wanna say,
anything at all -
i'm happy wondering.

2005-04-17T21:35:00.001+08:00

i wanna be with you forever,
if tomorrow's not too late.

went to kallang on friday. yeah. met an sc girl. joanne. sec 2. haha. wanted to play a friendly with her but all the damned courts were taken up. ROARS. squashed with darren when i got home. loll.

i hate derrick!. he made me read this damn long story.
AWW.
btw, that story made me go blind man. ROARS.

NEW FM SONG!.
(( unedited ))

FAIRFIELD NO.5;
ENCORE//SWEESWEE
Ladies and gentlemen
This is Fairfield No.5
One, two, three, four, five
Everybody's in the class, so come on lets strive
Let's write down the formula on the powerpoint
The boys say they want some girls and dates
But I really don't wanna
Get dumped like I had last week
I must stay deep
Because talk is cheap
I like Gwendolyn,Kenneth,SinYee and Nirma
And as I continue you know
They are getting sweeter
So what can I do I really beg and you my Lord
To me joking it's just like sport, anything fly
It's all good let me whack it
Please set in the ROARING
[chorus:]
A little bit of Sindhu in my life
A little bit of Genny by my side
A little bit of Sarah is all I need
A little bit of Charlene is what I see
A little bit of Audrey on the phone
A little bit of Sweeswee all night long
A little bit of Carina here I am
A little bit of you makes me your FRIEND

Fairfield No.5

Jump up and down go run 2.4 all around
Tap your TechDech like that
Put your hand on the board
Take one step back
And one step front
One to the air and one to the ground
Clap your hands once
And clap your hands twice
And if its like Ms Toh
Then you are doing it right
[repeat chorus]
Fairfiled No.5
[repeat chorus]
I do all
To fall in love with a friend like you
You can't run and you can't hide
You and me gonna touch the sky

Fairfield No. 5!

not forgetting the old one too.
(( uneditted ))

oooo. nirma loves elangovan
sindhu is being chased by joavan
muthu likes kumaran
sarah fits nagendran
carina and justin chan
genny and han
sin yee is holy
gwen has a dog called chippy
sheryl and christina
our form teacher is msreena
kenneth neo everything also dunno
melissa and kingsfield
we all study in fairfield
mr lim rocks my socks!

old and untouched version. (:

anw. chatting with that dumb derrick made me forget everything that i wanted to blog about la. so heck.
some other time.

the answers we find,
are never what we had in mind,
so we make it up as we go along.
you dont talk of dreams,
i wont mention tomorrow,
and we wont make those promises that we can't keep.
i will never leave you,
i will never let you down.

if i am_.

2005-04-14T18:37:00.000+08:00

HAHA.
SAINTS won ACSI RUGBY 6 - O.
WOOTS!.

im going to hold on,
even if i am going to die trying.

ahhh!.
i love my jie swee.
she wrote a song for ME!.
ROAR!. ((:

((unedited))

nanananana~
i said lets joke abt it as she walk out on me and slam her book,
but i just laugh abt it cus shes always having moodswings,
deep down i know genny but shes got a funny way of showing me how i don't,
lastnite she felt like a walking kazaa because i made her download MP3's,
ohh yeah.

CHORUS:
sometimes its "whoa" sometimes its "HI!!!",
sometimes shes right sometimes iam wrong,
sometimes we really break off or we fight it out,
but then she just change her mind,
sometimes shes cute sometimes iam high,sometimes my head wants to explode,
but when i think abt it iam gonna be her JIE,
EVERY OTHER TIME.....
nanananananna~
every other time.

Sometimes we sit around with the gang eating lousy pastas,
sometimes we swim around at Sentosa's palawan beach with Kenneth,
but then i think abt the time we broked OFF and you did'nt talked to me when i came,
ok, sometimes i walked around the school,
but i could'nt find you still,
but i take u back and you smile at me,
thats the way uh huh uh huh i like it.

(Repeat chorus.)

Keep it up spunker,
don't you stop,
u know the way you smile is the ultimate and when i walk away just watch the clock i bet i don't even get around the blog,
nananananana~
cus thats the way uh huh uh huh i like it.

AWW!.
so sweet.
love you loads jie!.
lolly.

anws, took chem test after school with charlene. and i didnt even study!. dumb shit. ma yong tao told me the answer to the last question. heh. and stupid sindhu was getting treated to swensen's and burger king by miss yeo??.

ROAR.

math was totally crap la. first period in the morning. haha. think the teacher had her period la. and i still dont know her name?. interesting. going down to kallang tomorrow. yayee!. and stupid tooty derrick wants to play with me. kuku knows i'll lose to him la. haha. (: and he owes me a TREAT.

derrick kwok yi feng:
if you're reading this, remember you STILL owe me a chicken dance, probably yet another cd and a treat. haha.

anyway, SARAH!.
you were really scary during pe la. haha.

i love my new song!.
ROAR.

EVERY OTHER TIME

2005-04-10T17:55:00.000+08:00

i tear my heart open,
i sew myself shut.
my weakness is that
i care too much.
and my scars remind me
that the past is real.
i tear my heart open
just to feel.

2005-04-09T17:16:00.000+08:00

"man, it takes a silly girl to lie about all the dreams she has.."

shall be going to acs i to squash soon.
rotted at home the whole day.

still pissed with pp. what a bitch.
"what kind of attitude is this?. go change your attitude."
look whos talking.

"..but lord, it takes a lonely one to wish that she never dreamt at all."

2005-04-08T22:49:00.000+08:00

do you dream, or do you sleep?.
do you wish upon a star?.

woots!. five - love.
haha. heck. bloody p was scolding like mad la. to hell with her.
we didn't have ten bucks to take a taxi down and she suggested such a WONDERFUL idea. note the capital letters. she suggested that we take coach's van down with her at 115. which is like, SO late?. and we didn't have time to train. she was going on and on about how COMFORTABLE his van was. that's cus she fcuking sits in front!. dumb bitch. doesn't know a single shit about squash. some in-charge she is. and keeps saying that the moe will return the money.

left class during a math. leaving for the last time on tues. during history. won't be taking my test. i'll fail even if i do. lets just hope kallang will be just as empty on tues. we're the last few matches. loll. oh heck.

if our ever after ever had a chance to grow_.

2005-04-07T21:50:00.000+08:00

why do we all end up ALONE?.
why do we always have to find our way back home?

stupid mrs p just called my handphone la. and she was like, practically shouting in my ear. harumphh. she was like, - "gen, you are playing tomorrow right?. you HAVE to play tomorrow ok?. i will be going down with you all. because if we have a walkover, i'm sending all of you to see ms fiona tan." made such a BIG fuss over a walkover. so what if it was a walkover. its SC. hello?. my primary school though, but they're a tough bunch. heck it if its a walkover. you never returned our money used for the taxi fares la. it's like, 1o bucks for each ride la. so ex. i SO do NOT wanna play tomorrow. i've got my asthma attacks coming these few days. so too bad if its 5 - LOVE.

went home with sarah today. had pe which was totally crap. not mentioning the timing la. and started fighting with my brother the moment i came home. as usual. nothing much to blog la.

HOSEA: i found your guitar pic!. loll. shall send it to you when you come online. it's good charlotte though. (:

working on my ipod skin now. so lame la. but i love the music in the ad. jerk it out by caesar palace. lolly. (:

the odds are in and you'll go far.
a penny for your thoughts you'll see,
a nickel buys you what you need.

2005-04-06T21:53:00.000+08:00

you just killed me so the story goes
once upon a time there was a guy who loved me more than life itself.
by the duck pond he said,
carved our names into the bark tree we climed the tree.
i slipped and fell behind,
now im sorry.

WOOTS!.
got my LIVESTRONG band by
LANCE ARMSTRONG. (:

school as usual. dangs. legs aching like crazy la. just came back from the gym. ran 2.4. and competed with shannon. see who can lift more weights.
MWAHAHA.
dont underestimate me kay stupid jie. haha. tomorrow's pe we're like, probably gonna run 2.4 la.

sheesh.

anws, today was crap la. sarah is like, totally nuts during math. and in chinese mr kwa told me that zhen lao shi was disappointed with me. LIKE HELL YEAH I KNOW. EVERYONE IS DISAPPOINTED RIGHT??. well, so am i la.

ROARS.

sad case la. =/ harumphh. then had chem and physics. sindhu was blowing her nose off during chem la. and audrey was like, "just how much crap do you have in there??." HEHH. how intersting. i wonder too!. loll.

and physics. hehh. cant stop laughing. ms lim was giving out sweets la. and neo said he wanted one. and dno what happened la. glenn spat one into his mouth or something la. lolly. and sarah was trying to advertise for a pen for her tamil class. and it was something like, pena 'ink' force force dno wadd la!. loll. and 'force force' was kirri kirri la. so i was like, HMMM. the pena 'ink' kirri kirri BOOM!. and sindhu started with her laughing fits. luckily audrey never got to hear of it. hehh. if not it'll be damn bad alrdy. they'll NEVER stop.

harumphh. im online for shorter and shorter times nowadays. jeez.

if you would just come back to me
i would be so good;
put your trust back in me
at least i think you should.
we'll call it my pathology
so i misunderstood;
a bit selfish i should be
if i could change i would.

if you would just come back to me.
see it on my face.

if you would just come back to me_.

2005-04-05T22:12:00.000+08:00

HOLD ON;
if you feel like letting go.
HOLD ON;
it gets better than you know.

RARLGLARGOARG.
fuck la.

played nanyang today. i personally feel like i could have won la. just that i rushed into my shots. cus I WAS LEADING THE FIRST TWO SETS!. and sc and rg were refereeing. jerryca, jessie, becky, almost everyone was there la. and i was playing second. rachelle was first la. cant believe she lost to that so called "for show" girl. and i played christine. HEHH. i could have won la. took the first two sets off her, then in the third game i screwed up big time. and in the fourth and fifth set too. DAMN SAD LA!. =/ before the third set i think, jerryca was really nice. haha. she was like, - genevieve, if you want to play a let you must ask us ok?. loll. and then someone else said so cute. hehh. damn lame la. then gen was there. (the twins cousin from sc) and when i was going to serve, she was like, - GO GEN! and everyone there started cracking up. (: how interesting. was raining like mad la. luckily it wasnt like monday's match. was drenched. TOTALLY. went back at 515. im still shocked la. lost to nanyang FIVE - LOVE.

RARLGLARGOARG. whatever that is la. loll. some crap word i just made up. got me pissed off la. and coach was like, trying to knock sense into my head even after my game. this proves that i've really gotta start working on my fitness already. i could ONLY take TWO f___ing sets off her la. and after that i practically couldnt run, my feet were glued to the floor, i faltered, all my balls were down la. and my backhand volleys werent right. so problematic huh. heck. shall train. maybe i'll go with the twins and rachelle to the 2nd leg. for the nationals. heck. or maybe the milo all stars in malaysia. hopefully i dont play pamela there. or even nicole. or jerryca. eek. RARLGLARGOARG. lost three - two la.but overall it was five - love. ROARR. so pathetic la. and.. shant say anymore. im getting pissed with myself la. even more. shh. all the vulgarities are starting to come out la. but hey!. i think i played good. just that i could have done BETTER. oh well, shall work on fitness and strokes.
inspiration. (:
off to catch up on the sleep i lost la.
bloody interschool tournaments.
YAYEE!. no training this thurs.
hopefully.

NOTHING SEEMS TO CHANGE.
let alone you wont forget my name
just dont lose what you know
when youre so far away

2005-04-01T15:41:00.000+08:00

hmm.
shhant update much la.
ROAR.
cross country today.
norman got stung by a bee.
HEHH.
and also pangsehed mal.
lolly.
nth to blog abt la.
=/

2005-03-26T14:21:00.000+08:00

yuck.
stop being a poser la.
you suck.
like, totally.
and stop sucking up.
arse.

2005-03-25T22:20:00.000+08:00

i wish i would've had the nerve
to ask you to stay.

ROAR.
some arse at acsi stole my slippers.
when i was at my aunts house.
harumph.
so i had to go home in my squash shoes.
loll.
and now im home and my aunt messages me
saying that the slippers appeared outside
her door step again.
some kuku dared to steal my slippers.
who in the right mind would?!.
they were huge,
and one was purple the other blue.
dumb ass was probably colorblind.
((:
i'll go get them back before they disappear again.
idiot.
totally lost my voice alrdy.
my throat hurts so much i just wanna die.

i would've liked to hold on,
to the PAST.

2005-03-25T17:50:00.001+08:00

REAL sexy voice.
loll.
NO VOICE ALREADY LA!.
done with a quiksilver skin.
sort of inspired by chelz and huiwen.
haha.
((:

2005-03-24T20:45:00.000+08:00

lost nygh 3-2.
to hell.
I'VE GOT SEXY VOICE!.
ROAR.
can barely talk la.
don't believe go call me.
loll.
DERRICK is such an idiot.
haha.
((:

2005-03-23T21:27:00.000+08:00

stop wasting my time bitch;
you're not worth my time.

anws;
back to my usual self.
feel much better now.
ILOVESWEE!.
((:
and SUDAYAKUMAR;
SLITHYA;
ASIEK;
HTHAW;
BLALA;
KNEO;
2d`o4.
tmw c div against nygh.
YOU GIRLS BETTER WIN!.
and i'll kick your asses if you don't run.
better not play any nonsense shots.
LOLL.
like joanne.
lmao.

you'll find out that this world
is just an idiot's parade.
the chronicles of life and death.
GOOD CHARLOTTE!.

2005-03-20T15:48:00.000+08:00

2d`o4 TREND SETTERS.

which doesn't include FUCKERS.

2005-03-19T15:32:00.000+08:00

THANKS JOCELYN!.
LOVELOVELOVE!. (:

2005-03-18T21:33:00.000+08:00

MY LEGS ARE SO GOING TO BREAK.

long day.
really LONG.
had tuition with cris this morning.
took the train that 'cris-never-knew-existed'
to meet charlene at harbour front.
cris got off at outram.
loll.
went to kenneth's house.
damn nice sial.
hahas.
but he was at kallang having a match.
squashed from about 12 something till 3.
made our grand entrance at the friendly match at 4.
((:
was damn tired already la.
and the sec 2 sc squashers were there.
RAchelle played HANNAH.
either eSTEE or eSTHHER played EMily.
i played HANNAH.
she's like,
her drops are damn good la.
cus i never do drop shots.
NEVER.
AT ALL.
hehh.
lost 3 - 2.
dangs.
could have won that last set la!.
ROARS.
and ROARS even louder.
but she played well la.
and like,
HANNAH won RAchelle and me la.
like,
the so called most valuable players in b div.
loll.
but hey!.
i do love myself.
i take it as i win la.
hahas.
cus i never bothered running for the ball
in such a way that i ever ran today.
and i never sweat so much in a match before.
which means that i never ran that much.
i never bothered running at all.
did a few power shots which chalked up some points,
and i managed to do that glass thingy TWICE!.
haha.
the sc coach thought i wouldn't be able to get that ball la.
but i did.
tyco like mad i think.
almost tripped and fell while returning those shots.
mwahahas.
got most of my shots right,
except for that bloody volley which cost me.
((:
what pissed me off was that fat girl.
and i mean,
REALLY FAT GIRL.
from our C div.
WHO DOESN'T DESERVE THAT PLACE.
tried imitating the sc referee la.
and what pissed me off MOST was -
when i missed my volley
(which was on my DAMNED forehand and i could even miss it)
she started cracking up.
ARSE.
i wanted to give her that finger -
MAN, I REALLY DID!.
sad thing was that;
i DIDN'T.
cus all the sc and fm people were watching.
that bloody match blew my temper.
anyway,
RAchelle won her last game la.
played with this girl whom i don't know her name la.
lolly.
they're like damn pro.
hahas.
think eSTEE and RAchelle won la.
bloody hell la!.
i could have won la!.
coach was counting on me la.
and like,
the twins were too.
haha.
i THINK.
oh heck.
LOST like
9 - 6, (bloody last set la)
9 - 3,
9 - 7.
WON
9 - 4,
9 - ?.
LOLLY.

laughing my ass off in a way that i never have.
my bro's showing me this dumb video of this
dude singing the
MAIA HEE
MAIA HO
MAIA HAHA
song.
((:

i DO love myself more after today.
ran like never before.
haha.
though i could have done much better la.

andd not to spoil my mood.
this bloody _______ has been copying me like shit la.
from the testimonial blogs,
to description next to the link,
the bloody spelling of RAWKKER,
EVEN 2d`o4!.
ALL RIGHTS RESERVED,
what a slut la.
merde.
you know bloody well who in the name of fuck you are.
i couldn't care less if you read this
you motherfucking daughter of a bitch whatever in shit's name you call yourself.and all your list of terrible fucking names goes on..

which reminds me la.
LOLL.
the girl RAchelle was playing with.
she kept on saying FUCK IT! when she couldn't get the bloody ball.
HEHH.

2005-03-17T21:37:00.000+08:00

OBSESSION.

squash obsession kicks in today.
ROARS.
training was damn tough today.
couldn't breathe properly la.
asthma attack.
bloody hell.
my toenail broke.
AGAIN.
half the toenail.
f__king pain la.
ran damn good anws.
((:
lolls.
ANDD EVEN DID THE GLASS THINGY.
haha.
one of the best trainings.
damned interschool next week.
roars-.
yee wen's bro came.
kicked his ass man!.
literally.
HEHH.
act big la.
wear NIKE sial.
running -
he paced me for only like, 5 laps.
then he went all the way BEHIND.
i DO feel good man!.

anws;
it does feel funny.
people literally FOLLOWING you.
as in following you and your -
blog;
blog designs;
spelling;
style;
phone;
FUCKING LIST GOES ON.

2005-03-16T15:41:00.000+08:00

the battle wages on for toy soldiers.

went down to the dentist.
went with my cousin.
he wanted to put on braces
and had to take a few xrays and
a mould of the teeth.
and i had to do it last time!.
the stupid mould substance tasted like
play doh or something like that.
then went down to ikea.
ate the meatballs again.
loll.
walked over with lemuel and luke to queensway.
bumped into lots of bloody fairsians.
then looked around like crazy for my shoes.
finally found the ADIDAS CLIMACOOL.
was $139 plus.
haggled till i got 30% off.
and another few bucks discount cus i'm a regular at that store.
so it was $97.30.
and he read wrongly or something la.
told the guy at the cashier $79.
which is like 43% la.
didn't know i would save so much just because of his mistake.
anws;
he's a nice guy.
guess it's my lucky day.
(:

im not gonna let someone else's guilt rest on my conscience.

2005-03-15T21:34:00.000+08:00

GUESS I'M NOT SUPPOSED
TO BLOW MY COMPOSURE NOW HUH.
I'M SICK OF THIS.
I'M LOSING MY IDENTITY.
FIRST THE DOUBLE LETTERS.
THEN THE SMALL MAJOR STUFF.
LIKE THE WAY I TALK;
WALK;
WRITE;
SHOES;
PHONE;
BAG;
AND DON'T FORGET THE
FUCKING BLOG LA!.
THE FUCKING CODES;
STYLE;
AND THE FUCKING LIST GOES ON LA.
IM SICK AND TIRED OF YOU GUYS.
FUCKING POSERS.
LIKE FUCK IT I UNDERSTAND.
WHAT THE FUCK
YOU FUCKING GUYS
ARE FUCKING TRYING TO DO.

kenneth NEO:

"WHAT GOES UP MUST COME DOWN
WHAT GOES DOWN MUST COME UP
IF YOU'RE AGAINST ME
YOU GO DOWN"

COME ON LA.
YOUR BRO THINK HE WHO?.
WANNA FIGHT THEN COME LA!.
LOOK FOR ME LA!.
COME AND LOOK FOR ME
AND FIGHT IT OUT LIKE
A MAN LA!.
GAY PIECE OF SHORT FAT DUMB SHIT.
HE THINK HE BIG AH?!.
BESIDES IN BODY MASS LA.
HE'LL THINK TWICE AH.
HE'S A PIECE OF FUCKED UP SMALL SHIT.
BET I CAN KNOCK HIM OUT
IN ONE MOVE LA.
ASSHOLE.
IF YOUR BRO IS AGAINST ME;
DOUBT YOU CAN EVER SEE HIM
AGAIN LA!.
KNN.
YOUR BRO IS DAMN FUCKING DUMB LA!.
ONLY KNOW ABOUT UP AND DOWN.
TELL HIM GO FUCK HIMSELF
SIDEWAYS LA!.

WHY MUST I BE THE ONE CHANGING
WHEN ALL OF YOU WILL COPY ME LATER?.
YOU GUYS SUCK.
AND I MEAN,
REALLY SUCK BIG TIME.
BIG TIME.

she's pissed off at everyone.
she's pissed off at the whole world.
SHE WANTS A RIOT.

2005-03-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

ROARS.
somehow i find this skin KUKU.
haha.
don't know if i should upload the VOLCOM one.
loll.
went for training today.
only 7 of us were down la.
RAchelle;
TESSa;
RAYna;
agNES;
CHERYl;
ME.
haha.
ran like mad la.
not going tomorrow.
but going on thurs.
=/
can bet youu
CHHARlene is SO gonna pon.
and maybe DAWNie too.
the twins are in hongkong
or somewhere like that la.
HEHH.
dumb interschool nxt mon?.
eek.
to hell with squash b div!.
haha.
we're so gone case la.
the only ones playing are
RAchelle;
CHHARlene;
kai LIN.

i won't be playing!.
lardeedumms.
((:

2005-03-14T16:15:00.000+08:00

sick of hearing
I WANT YOU AND YOUR BEAUTIFUL SOUL.
haha.
soon its gonna be
LEFT RIGHT LEFT!.
lalalaaa.
new skin anw.
((:

2005-03-13T23:35:00.000+08:00

heh.
sindhus so toot!.
haha.
beautiful soul is dumb ok?.
you kukunanapokarse.
just uploaded this dumb skin cus.
hmm.
i also dont knw why.
cus i made it and never used it?.
so just decided to upload it first la.
anws;
just finished a few.

VOLCOM for GLENN;
eminem - LIKE TOY SOLDIERS;
the killers - MR BRIGHTSIDE;
run dmc - ITS TRICKY;
bowling for soup - ALMOST;
jennifer lopez - GET RIGHT.

lolll.
shhall take a long time to upload them all.
unless i change everyday la.
waste my time.
ROARS. ((:

2005-03-12T23:16:00.000+08:00

i miss 2d`o4.
=/
watched spongebob today.
hehh.
dumb krabby patties.
and plankton.
blahblahblah.
((:
caught up with erusha.
man!.
theyre all black tip already!.
and lil dilly is red already.
and the grading fee is 6o bucks?.
hehh.
played so called night squash today.
haha.
so crappy.
got dumb blisters all over my feet.
ROARS.

2005-03-12T00:11:00.000+08:00

went to cine today.
caught son of the mask.
loll.
the small fart`s so cute!.
roars.
___`s so sweet.
haha.
saw terrence whatever and stephan at heeren.
so kuku.
so GAY.
don`t feel like goin for squash la.
=/

over my head;
for something i said.
COMPLETELY misread -
im better off dead.

2005-03-10T21:54:00.000+08:00

3B`o5.
rahh.
2nd for soccer and 3rd for street bendy.
haha.
the peeps played great today la.
loll.
feel like shutting down this blog la.

is this the end?

2005-03-09T21:27:00.000+08:00

3b`o5 rockks.
esp 3b`o5 soccer. ((:
hmmm.
3b wasn`t as badd i thoughht!.
jus like 2d.
hehh.
bloodyy 3b jerseyy will be like;
white basedd andd PINK?.
good ****.
save mye soul.
its PINK.
ROARR.

SINDHU:
TWENTYYTHREE IS MINE.
layy off!. ((:

2005-03-08T21:56:00.000+08:00

RAHHH!.
3b`o5 rockks la.
haha.
stayyedd backk t watchh da guyys at soccer.
((:
darren was so funnyy!.
loll.
abel;hosea;joshua;shaun were like damn pro too la.
haha.
((:
still miss 2d`o4.

HAPPY B`DAYY SWEE!.

HAN:
ITS OKAYYE; ITS ALRIGHHT!.
mootoo mootoo fighht fighht!.
eek.
EVILSMILE.

2005-03-06T21:17:00.000+08:00

2005-03-05T21:30:00.000+08:00

went ta support fmss dance at anti drugg todayy.
thhinkk last year`s one ROCKKKEDD la!.
((:
haha.
sorta got lost at suntec la.
clddn`t findd da peeps.
nthh muchh la.
damn boring la.
saw lotsa fairsians dwn thhere.
roars.

YOUU; PAINTEDD MYE ENTIRE WORLDD -

2005-03-03T22:13:00.000+08:00

boO!.
yayee.
goin t sabahh.
anws;
lotsa thhings happenedd la.
andd everyyone`s like -
whyy`s yr blogg jus a blackk page?.
roarr.
anws;
jus chhangedd mye layyout
andd wantedd t sayy smthh la.
but jus forgot.
dahell.
watchhedd CONSTANTINE agn on tues.
so nice.
roarrs.
todayy`s sqwashh was crapp.
i knockkedd off da FAN.
hehh.
just lobbedd da ball la!.
thhen it bouncedd on da fan twice..
andd da cover startedd falling dwn.
followedd by da screws;
andd DUST.
lolly.
luckilyy da coachh was NICE.
just saidd thhat he was impressedd withh my strokes
andd thhat i shhldd heckk abt da fans
whhen playing sqwashh la.
((:
stuupidd fan.
wishh ____ was standing UNDER da place
whhere da fan cover fell.
LOLL. ((:
andd da twins;rara;tessa andd dawn were like so -
eek.
thheyy literallyy went GAGA over da coach la!.
andd startedd talkkin abt his frienddster acc.
dahelll.
lollly.
anws;
shhall update anothher tme la.
peace out. ((:

to swee:
NLWR!. ((:

to chhar:
youu go da whhole 480 andd start spinning.

to hAn:

MOO!. [:

2005-02-26T15:35:00.000+08:00

have i rlyy chhangedd?.

2005-02-22T17:43:00.000+08:00

rahh.
happy dayy.
i love mr noodle. ((:
don`t believe ANYTHH i sayy now.

2005-02-21T21:42:00.000+08:00

hohums.
mrs peng scoldedd mie lahhs.
stuupid cip thhingy.
diidn`t go t her hse fer "refreshhmentts".
cus i was at schh.
zzz-ing awayy.
roarrs.
roarr.
todayy was coachh`s last tme.
sadd la.
he`ll be backk 2 weeks later ta decide if he`ll still cont.
hmms.
triedd ta playy mye best todayye lahh.
but mye legs gave wayy.
so bloodehh pain now.
=/

just realisedd thhat i miss him loadds.
ite feels so emptyy.
gawdd.
can`t believe i`m sayyin thhis.
truthh is -
i NEVER got over YOUU.

i almost forgot ta sayy smthh else -
so if i can`t fit in;
i`ll keep it all ta myeself.
i almost wrote a song abt youu todayy;
but i tore ite all up andd threw ite awayy.

andd i ALMOST hadd youu.
but i guess thhat doesn`t cut it.
almost lovedd YOUU.
i almost wishhedd youu wldd`ve lovedd mie too.

2005-02-20T22:34:00.000+08:00

roarr.
finallyy chhangedd skin.
heckk.
shhan`t be updating.
anws;
ytdayy`s cip totallyy rockkedd.
can`t believe i actuallyy saidd thhat.
seriously.
it rockkedd.
stood arndd slackkin askkin da richh ang mohhs t donate.
thhen went fer lunchh.
hahas.
andd walkkeddd over t schh t take myye ss txbk.
frm hollandd.
so nerdehh. =/
andd thhen went up t chharlene`s lockker on da 4thh lvll.
to SLEEP.
thhen bussedd dwn t buona vistaaa to return da NEARLYY EMPTYY tins.
andd walkkedd backk t schh.
was almost runnin.
cus was supposedd t meet someone.
andd went withh someone andd chhar t queenswayy.
bumpedd into jo agn.
hahas.
jo andd her guyy.
went t ikea t get da meatballs.
andd went t acs i.
rahhhs.
nthh muchh la.
tagtagtag evryyone.
((:

2005-02-16T19:09:00.000+08:00

roarr.
miss lim complainedd abt our class.
heckk.
physics was crapp la.
anws.
most of my stuff is on my other blog.
dont link thhat one.
((:

andd the worldd is BLACKK.

2005-02-13T21:21:00.000+08:00

roarrs.
evryythhings on da othher blogg.
loll.

if youu want mye autobiography;
babyy just askk mie.

2005-02-12T17:18:00.000+08:00

originality counts la.
so stop rippin off mye stuff kay?.
andd leave thha bloodehh credits thhere if youu did.
fuckkers.

directedd to sindhhu`s friendd.
bugger.

2005-02-11T16:32:00.000+08:00

i swear thha happiest dayy offe mye lyyfe;
wldd be thha dayy thhat i die.
can youu feel thha coldd tonighht;
ite sets in but its alrighht.
darkness falls;
i`m letting go.
all alone;
but i feel fine.

2005-02-10T18:26:00.000+08:00

no commentts.
just hate thhis life.

how long will i be WAITING..

2005-02-10T11:34:00.000+08:00

"ANDD SO I DON`T MISS YOUU."
BITCHH.